N Cycles

It's been a few months and I apologize because I have had a few requests for updates.  Thank you all in this community for the support that you so freely give.

My NH's N cycle has been peaking off the charts the past few months and it would take a novel to tell you all that I and others in our family and circle have been through lately.  The upside is however, that I am really too exhausted to care or to get sucked into the emotional propoganda.  So, I am just letting him have his little theatrical production all to himself right now.  Which, I think tix him off more than anything else.

As for the Holidays, my goal was to survive and I did that.  I am now looking for a job and expecting that I will probably lose this house and have to give up my 4 legged critters and move myself and my children to a tiny little apartment.  Which I will absolutely love because it will be my space and even though I will be broke and probably have to donate a kidney to be able to keep my children anything would be better than this....That is, if I can ever get him to leave (I'd leave but he hates this house and would just let it go whereas I would fight to keep up on the payments and would rather keep the kids here.)

So, I am hanging by a thread and as usual, in limbo, waiting for the NH to make a move one way or the other.